Monday, November 30, 2009

Simply Blessed

As I look back over past posts, it seems that I tend to gravitate towards deepish thoughts and such, but I also want to capture my life right now as well. I have just embarked on many new journeys in my life. First, as of today I've been married 5 months and 12 days, and it is wonderful. People ask me all the time how married life is, and I don't know how to tell them how much I love it. I was made for it. I love that I get to spend so much time with my best friend, I love that there is no more making plans to see each other (we can just BE together at our place), I love not being in two different cars, it's so great! And my husband, he is just wonderful. He is such a servant and an encourager, I just love that.

I love that he loves to make dinner, and when he is in charge of the meal, insists that I go sit down in the living room.
I love that he tucks me in every night and kisses me goodbye every single morning.
I love walking into church, holding his hand. To this day, I still get butterflies when I look over and can say that such an amazing Godly man is mine.
I love that he flirts with me while I'm in the choir.
I love that he will go shopping with me (and not a sit on the bench or in the car white I shop, he helps me pick things out, and is great at it).
I love that on Saturdays he wakes up and immediately starts the cleaning routine.
I love that we act like totally idiots around each other (from weird voices to dancing to whatever... we are silly and I am totally myself when it is just us)
I love that he gets to church 2 hours early so I don't have to drive alone to choir practice.
I love that he folded three whole loads of laundry by himself on Monday.
I love that he does little things like plugging up my computer when I've fallen asleep on the couch.

I don't know if we are still in the honeymoon phase, but I am still just smitten. Sure, we've had our times of discussion over things we didn't agree on. And, I realize that love is choice and takes work, but right now it is easy to love him. Our life is so simple and sweet right now. I can't lie and say that I don't think about buying a house and having babies (ok...a lot), but I wouldn't trade this time with Jason for anything in the world. It is absolutely blissful. I don't know if I've ever been happier.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Who will rescue my from this body of death?

So many times, I am so frustrated with myself when it comes to self control and discipline, particularly as it relates to my spiritual walk. I am not alone, and unique in this struggle, in fact, the apostle Paul talked about it in length in Romans chapter 7:16:

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate, I do.
I hear ya, Paul! Although this statment sounds like something a crazy person would say, I struggle with it every day. I would also just like to take a moment and note that Paul was a man that was struggling with this so it can't be blamed on a woman's perrogative. : ) Paul goes on to explain how this is possible in the following verses. He says that the evil he does is because of the sin living in him. He says that in his inner being, he desires to delight in God's law. I am right there too! My soul cries out to glorify the Lord, but then that evil takes over. SO frustrating!! But, Paul's cries of frustration are answered when he realizes that in the end the GOOD shall prevail...
Who will rescue me from this body of death?

How terrible would it be if this question went unanswered? So many people are living on this earth and trying to defeat their sin natures on their own, and this just in, IT CAN NOT BE DONE. I mean ,this is Paul, this guy wrote half of the New Testament and was martyred for his faith, and HE couldn't even defeat his sin nature on his own. So HOW do people think they are going to "be good enough to get into Heaven"? It can not be done.

But, Hallelujah, there's more. There is a rescuer, who is here to SAVE US! The answer to Paul's question... Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God-through CHRIST OUR LORD!!! (Romans 7:24-25) In the end, we won't be perfected until we see Jesus in Heaven.

He ends by saying, So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin. A few songs come to mind on this subject too.
particularly, "Come thou fount of every blessing" which says...

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Take my heart, Lord
Take and seal it.
Seal it for thy courts above.

I love the idea of being SEALED. So many people are confused about their salvation. When it is really, very simple. The presence of the Holy Spirit SEALS US and also HELPS us conquer our sin nature on earth too. The Holy Spirit is the most powerful weapon He has given us for conquering our sin nature. Check out Ephesians 1:13-14 And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believe, you were MARKED IN HIM WITH A SEAL, the promised HOLY SPIRIT, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession-to the praise of this glory. That is just awesome!

My prayer this week, is that I will be sensitive to the Holy Spirit so that I can claim victories on this earth over my own flesh. My pastor challenged us this week to live out Ephesians 4:25-32. Basically it says to put off falsehood, not to be angry in sin, not to steal, to keep unwholesome talk out of your mouth, to rid myself of bitterness, rage, anger, brawling, slander, and malice, to forgive others in love, and finally to...

not grieve the holy spirit, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.
Ephesians 4:25
Thank you Lord, for the precious gift of the Holy Spirit. Thank you that His power is working in me now. Endow me with the spiritual weapons I need to defeat sin. It is you I desire. I pray that every word that leaves my lips, every thought that enters my brain, and every meditation of my heart will be pleasing unto you. Amen