Tuesday, July 7, 2009

...and I know He watches me.

26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Matthew 6:26-27

Well, much has happened since my last post. There is so much I could catalog at this moment from the wedding to the honeymoon to married life, but today I write to tell of my wonderful heavenly Father. I suppose I will divulge a little about my new life as a married woman. It is wonderful! What a joy and blessing to get to share life with someone. To get to hang out with your best friend all the time- a dream come true. But, of course, some things are hard too-like the budget. Now, don't get me wrong, I actually like budgets! However, the huge worry roadblock sitting in my head right now is, that I don't have a job yet. Life is so ironic, yanno? One of the reasons I changed my major to education was because I thought it would be a job I could be easily employed with right after graduation. Hmmm..not so much.

So today, more than anything, I want a job. It's not even just about the budget. It's about an opportunity to do what I love-minister to middle schoolers. And then, if I'm being honest, it's about the fact that I think I will go stir crazy if I don't have an opportunity to work. And, if I'm being really honest, it's about the fact that it really screws up my plans.

HOWEVER, I know that everything rests in the hands of my great savior and friend !! This season of waiting has already allowed me to spend some time really leaning into Him, and TRUSTING Him completely. After all, just as the verse says, he even feeds the birds of the air!! The song "his eye is on the sparrow" has been on my heart lately. I know it is my Father telling me to trust Him, and I do. He is the holder of hope. He orders my steps. This week has been spent intentionally talking and listening to Him. With only a few more weeks until pre-planning begins, I am boldly asking the Father for a miracle of getting a job in the midst of a dried up market, and I really believe that He will grant it. In fact, for some reason, I'm feeling good about some good news tomorrow. But either way, He is in control and I will trust and praise Him completely.

Thank you Father for your love and guidance. You are able!! You are loving!! You are wise!! You are good all the time!! I will praise you in the valley and on the mountain top. You are in charge, and you will take care of us. I have laid my request before you, gracious Father, and now as you said, I wait in expectation. Thank you Father for the blessing of being able to put our hope and trust in you.